I was absent to the blogging world for quite sometimes because I don't really know what to write, somehow I find a lot of things in my head but none of them made it to the final thing to write. There is one thing though that I have been thinking for the last week. It all started when I learned that my first cousin just died.
I started to realize that it is indeed true that death is the greatest equalizer, no one can avoid it. It made me think if ever I will die tomorrow am I ready? I don't really think I am, I not ready to leave my son at a very young age, have not reach nor started to achieve my dream yet. Most of all I don't think I am spiritually ready.
Since I have been thinking of death since that time, I started to do something I haven't done in a very long time. Praying! it is true that we sometimes call our creator when we needed him, I am guilty of that. I really wanted him to watch over me and my family.
while writing this i look at my son who is sleeping so peacefully, I started to think what will happen to him when I am gone, sure there are a lot of family who can take care of him but I pray to God not to get me now, to give me a long life to see what will he become. I am still afraid of death though..
Sigh! there is something good though when I think about death, it makes me think about God and it makes me closer to him. I dont pray before but now I do... I guess it's also one way of God reminding me of him.
lets us all pray for every one :)